Monthly Archives: September 2010

Top Ten Things I Hate About…

…being on crutches. Yes, I’m on crutches. Have been for a few weeks now. Why? I wrenched my knee. Badly enough that I went to the doctor and got a cortisone shot. Had them shoot up both knees, as long as I was there. Just for fun. Several days later I was feeling much better and then, predictably, completely overdid it and made things worse. So, yeah, back to the crutches for a while.

But it’s not all pain and inconvenience and surly behaviour. Really. Okay, damnit, yes it is. I know, I shouldn’t complain. This is temporary and there are so many people with truly debilitating injuries or disabilities for whom it is a lifelong ordeal. And I’m sure they don’t complain about it. Much. Obviously, they’re better and stronger people than I. Because I’m here to kvetch about the crutch.

Here are the top ten — wait, turns out there are twelve — things I hate about being injured and having to use crutches:

1. Being patient. Everything, and I do mean everything, takes at least twice as long to accomplish. If not longer. I find creative use of vulgar profanity eases the burden and helps pass the time.

2. Oversharing. I understand those who feel compelled to tell me about their knee problems. Or other people’s knee problems. I’d do the same thing. But there are people, complete strangers, who see an apparent infirmity as an invitation to share their entire medical history. Or tell me about Aunt Edith’s hip replacement. And Cousin Seymour’s colostomy. And poor Grandpa George’s second wife Edna, bless her heart, who had five miscarriages and a hysterectomy. Maybe I’m an easy mark because they know I can’t smile and nod and keep walking. Swiftly. Away.

3. Palms and armpits. They’re sore. Enough said.

4. Advil. This is one of those love/hate things. I love that it’s available and that it helps. But I’m taking an awful lot of it and I hate the groggy foggy way it makes me feel. Plus, you know, random napping can be so inconvenient.

5. Driving. It’s my right knee and putting pressure on the gas and brake pedals is way up there on the pain-o-meter. No, I can not drive with my left foot. Not even if I’m only going to the end of my driveway. Not that I do that. Also, getting into the car. Getting out of the car. Dragging the crutches in and out. Difficult.

6. Sitting. And standing. Both hurt. The static position of each, but also going from sitting to standing is incredibly painful. It’s best not to think about it too much. Just grit your teeth and do it.

7. Cooking. The smaller the space, the more the crutches get in the way. And if you prop one up against the counter, even for just a couple seconds, it will fall over and hit you. In the most painful place possible. Usually while you’re holding something very hot.

8. The cat. Instead of being afraid of the crutches, like any sensible cat would be, she has decided they are to be randomly challenged and attacked. One of us is going to get hurt.

9. Doors. Doors are tricky. You have to make sure the crutches are out of the way before you pull the door open. It’s a deceptively not-so-simple kind of thing. Then you shove an arm in the trajectory so it doesn’t close again before you can hobble the rest of yourself into the opening. My elbows and the backs of my arms are battered and bruised.

10. Carrying stuff. Especially stuff that could spill, like food or drink. Thank god for containers with lids. And a roomy book bag with a long shoulder strap. I tell you, getting the laundry to the laundry room is an Adventure in Logistics. Mostly I’ve decided that things are just fine where they are and don’t need to be moved after all.

11. Stairs. Stairs are a one-crutch operation. Unless you want to end up in a bloody tangled heap. I try to avoid that. The thing is, you’re going to need both crutches once you get to the top. Or bottom. Going down is easy, just slide one crutch down ahead of you. Going up is . . . well, you get creative. See #10 re carrying stuff. Also, #1 re patience. And #8. Sigh.

12. Asking for help. I know, it’s pure stupid stubborn pride, but I hate to ask for help. If it’s something for a friend or one of my kids, hey, no problem. I’ll ask anyone for anything, without shame or hesitation. But for myself? Nope. I can be precariously balanced, each hand white-knuckled around not just a crutch but also a purse and bag lunch and bottle of water, struggling to pull open the big heavy glass door of my workplace, and someone will pass by and ask, “You need help with that?” And I’ll smile and say, “No thanks, I’ve got it.” Sometimes they’ll ask again, “You sure?” I’ll smile even more brightly and say, “Yep. I’m good.” Now, if they don’t ask but just come over and open the damn door for me, I’ll be full of gratitude and thank them. Profusely. Because that’s just a huge welcome relief. But if they ask and I have to say, “Yes, I need help” . . . nope, not gonna happen. I know, I’m contrary.

So there you have it. All the pitiful whining and complaining I’ve managed to hold back and keep off the blog for the past three (or so) weeks.

Anyone else have any kvetching they want to do? Any top ten, or twelve, complaints you’ve been wanting to air? Any advice about how to gracefully ask for help? Never mind, keep that last one to yourself. I’m in enough pain without having to bruise my ego too.


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Pass the syrup, I’m waffling

After a month with minimal exposure to the internet, it seems as if I should be able to make some profound observations. And yet, I don’t have any. Maybe this would be different had I denied myself ALL access to the internet. But that’s not what I did.

I still checked email and read news stories. I browsed a couple blogs intermittently, but mostly ignored the comments. I (finally!) started using an RSS feed, which was extremely helpful in terms of deciding which blog posts I wanted to read and when, as well as removing the temptation of wandering into the comments.

Mostly what I denied myself was the time-consuming interactive aspect of the internet. I didn’t comment on blogs and I didn’t “tweet,” nor did I read the comments and tweets of others. For the first few days, I really did feel like something was missing — well, obviously, something was. But once I got used to the different routine, I didn’t miss those things. Maybe because I was too darn busy with other things. In fact, it’s hard to believe it has been a month already. It was a busy eventful month.

Now I’m feeling ambivalent about resuming that interaction. I commented on a blog yesterday and wrote a few tweets, but was surprised that it felt as awkward to do those things now as it did when I was doing them for the very first time. I’m not sure what to make of that. Or whether I want to continue with the effort.*

Certainly, it all would feel comfortable and routine again fairly quickly. I’m adaptable. But I wonder whether I want to engage in the same ways. Or at all. Some people would say, “If it’s fun, do it. If not, stop.” Yeah, well, sometimes it is and other times, not so much. It doesn’t seem clear-cut to me.

What I’m pondering is whether those things are truly important to me and what benefit I derive from them. Are these activities enriching my life or merely distracting me from it? Am I investing time or procrastinating? I don’t know. I have no answers.

Maybe I just need some more quiet time to sort it all out.

*Please note, for the purposes of this discussion, I am not referring to the CB blog. That’s different.


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